Confession: My Great Appeaser

"To look deeper than the colour of things is a fantasy
Exploring deeper thoughts and meanings is not superficial
To whist ourselves is just as natural as reflections
When we use all these it’s called soulful pleasure and fun
If you say you don’t need any of these you’re extremely unsensual"

--famejud--


My Great Appeaser


You may think these are peevish scenes on my mind
But there’s nothing wrong with what I feel inside
This reflects on my mind
They may say I am in a severe situation of a hopeless case
That sounds absurd who have foolish games and foolish dreams
But these are just the things I want to say…
When I sleep I summon you
The good sword of my soul
In each day you command me too
From the corners of my mind
You make me unwind on what pleasure I give to you
And pleasures you bring to me
They think I’m going wacky
They thought it isn’t normal
And yes maybe I’m in my autistic world
Where there I can lay my hands in no control
Where my body and soul is free….
So here comes the good sword of my soul
He cut me once
He cuts me thrice
But I never saw him in disguise
I felt all natural
Because the cuts are just so fine
We’re saving this world for one
While our pleasures slowly run
Through these rainbow connections these fun has just begun
That time cometh and will be done……
Hello, My great appeaser
The good sword of my soul
At night you come and protect me from my nightmares
When you leave each morning’s you say I’ll be just fine
It makes me remember and feel you from deep within….
The rest of the day I’m just bounded by the good sword of my soul
My great Appeaser…..From this moment and on…..
They say it’s very rude thing about me
I said No, it’s not rude at all
For they may click and stick
But they sound incomplete.
What else to notify?
You can say what is relevant….
I’d rather be guilty and free
Do judge me or misjudge me
It won’t mislead me at all
I am who I am
This is my inner self speaking for anyone who listens well….
I am saying this is me
I don’t care whatever they think of me
Because when they laugh at me
I am laughing too
So we are all even….
I am saying that if they have all the tools
Or the tool they just need in the real world
I don’t care, I don’t give a damn
It’s my tool I’m talking about
The good sword of my soul
The finest of all
Your solitary, tool in my dreams and fantasies
My great Appeaser…..
I’m living with you everyday
With those hopes and dreams
You’re still not taking it away
This you may react
It is sad but true
I am just the woman who believes in you……
With you I believed
With you I only hoped
With you I am just me
With you who commands me
With you who I long for
With you who took me out of post
And make me run my own feet on the steering wheel.
No further questions asked
You’re the one who can see me through
You who bring out the best and worst of me
You know, I know
You see, I see
You feel, I feel
That these are the plain truth between you and me…..
This is not even a poignant matter to me it will never be
Because for me you will always be
The good sword of my soul…..My great Appeaser…….


written @ prk bul. Tabuk Kalinga 2243hrs
--->by: julieva famejud <---