Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

SILENCE

why is it so calm
why is it so deep
this silent noise
taking me aback
life is so uncertain
suddenly there's the headwinds
keep pushing to and fro
saying must i sail or no?
i kept thinking
i must be dreaming
but i'm fully awake
unconsciously talking
like i'm somewhere else
so if i may ask
is this just a tale
or your fantasy
of being so wild
the waves are splashing so hard
so im trying to reach the harbor
that is now being still and calm
so hear my silent haven
where should i go
tell me when your ready
you just have to let me know.




by: famejud

0539hrs
manila



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I'll Stand By You ( Carrie Underwood )









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Friday, May 21, 2010

THE ROOM





You're a sensual delight encased in a stylish wrapper
My life affirming optimism for adventures
You are able to read and understand
Who I am???
You were a friend
Who can smooth ruffled feathers
For both of us is such from 2 different worlds
Where You can see me
And I can't see you
You were a friend
For both of us there was love, secret pleasures in our own artistry
I felt you certainly lives for love
That you have your own creative style
And that's just what I adore about you
Perhaps you do not know but I am telling you now
That's what I felt from your invisibility
During my restless days and taking risks
You are at the peak and some of those days flares up
But your bold personality is too controlling
For harmony is inside of you
Who can go through the rough trek
And give space for the days that passed by
You were walking with me through it
You did not know I also don't know why
My miserable restless days that I needed air
You watching me breathing and you were there
I do remember
You are stimulating your great sensitivity
Your senses that drives me crazy unprepared
Every time we speak
And what can I say???
I love the way you are
You were bold but have a gentle touch
In my heart you are written in any page of my scrap book
I understand now
The freedom and space you've given me
Thank you for this spacious room
And this is such a special gift from you for me.......
My eyes then were blind folded
As I can't see you
When you smile or laugh
I did not even see you cry
I did not see you gone mad
Through my eyes I did not see you
I can't even use my brains to read you
What's in you what is all about you.......
But then through this room you've given me
There's a lot of air to breathe into
That somehow in someways
It chills me to the bone whenever we talk
Suddenly I felt
I am unmasking the real you
Dampening enthusiasms
Trying to meet both ends
That I'm always at the bottom
And your on top of these
Magically stimulated love quest
I have written a lot about you
That no body knows who Im referring to....
I kept you secret like my own soul
You are the air that keeps me breathing in this room
You just simply got what I needed
You are a friend a flare and my air.......
Now I am wanted
I have spoken too much
And you speak less
Now there's no more carousels like riding in circles
You are slowly taking off the blind fold
So I can walk through that direction
So that I can finally see your face
Your smile or laughter
Your pain and tears........
These were the words I wanted to say Last time we spoke
But my brains are frozen so I couldn't think
I know I have my dumb moments
But I'm glad you're just out there anyway
Who can see and read the real me......
Love truly plays in mysterious ways
So any day from tomorrows
I will finally see and meet you in this room You've given me..........


by:famejud
052210
0509 manila

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"Pocketful of Sunshine"


Sunday, May 16, 2010

Half of My Lonely Broken Heart


Love once lost love once found
Love once true love once blind
Love once broken and left behind
Love was pure love was deep
Love once felt truly secret
Love once masked love's upbeat
Love's no harm to this lucky charm.
Love you then love you here
Love was where in Ocean Deep
Love questions once out break
Love was hidden at no mistake.
Love uproars here
Love's in the air
If u hear thy heart
Nothing has changed
From where it was and where had been
So where are you???
Half of my lonely broken Heart.....???


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Wonder by Reina del Cid { Theme Song to the one i wrote this Poem for :) }

There are a few new leaves
On my backyard tree
And I never want to trip you up with honesty
But I guess the burden of the truth
Was greater than me

I've got my blue guitar and my coffee mug
God, I'm always singing
All these songs of love
But you, what do I know about you?

Instrumental

What can I say? If I feel this way
It's like trying to paint a picture
With just shades of gray
And I can't help but see in color
When I look at your face

I can talk about my wildest plans
And you'll understand cause the
Words are always resting in my open hands
But you, what can I say about you?

Chorus:
Now I wonder what it would be like
To have your hand in mine
I'd rather fail than to never try

There are a few good fruits
On the friendship shoot
But I never trusted people like I'm trusting you
And time can move so slowly
When you're not here

You make the doubts dry up
When my mind shuts down
And it's never been as open
As it is right now
See, I feel like I could do this
If you wanted to

Chorus (2x)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UTph9UoxrWU

Friday, March 26, 2010

I VOW TO CARRY ON

This brief and borrowed life
Lord to you I dedicate
And evermore transformed by love
I vow to meet my faith.

Never will I leave Your church
Never will I turn away
And I pray for strength to serve
Until my dying day.

If You should test my faith
Lord I promise to be strong
And though the worse may come to pass
I vow to carry on.

When at last my time is done
When at last my life is spent,
Tell me I am almost home
And I will live again!



(i came in the world with nothing.... everything here on earth is Yours... i own nothing my Lord ......All the glory is Yours.......You are Holy .....All my love is Yours......keep me grounded....keep me bounded.....i don't want to leave your flock...i know i struggled a lot and will keep struggling more......and I know that's nothing at all while I have to earn my place with you.......You give me more strength, I'm holding on......I know You'll Love me more....)



=famejud=

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Broken Synthesis

Behind the Song:

Amidst the placid waters there’s a poignant grief for lies, manipulation, provocation, division, hastiness, flattery, knowledgeable of all, slander, betrayals, belittlement, she had enough…..she’s still…but she can’t tame her tongue anymore…..it’s almost three decades…..that placid waters streamed inside her bloodline……she saw greed and felt unforgiving hearts who never think of other special people but only themselves….of their own profits…..I’m awakened…..I’m calm… inside I’m burning I can’t let them do all these things….there’s a need to go….I know this is home…….for me it was haunted……it should be stopped…I hope it will…..they will….I couldn’t slip a chance…….coz that’s all I got….I hope….it’s for good…That was then……..till’….. This is now…….



Amidst the troubled waters….. I am afraid…. I just can’t let myself see all of these till my central nervous system shuts down….I am afraid…. but it’s all I have left…..there’s no turning back……or I will keep my mouth shut forever and live the way I used to be with the haunted....I was not a bad person at all….I love to hope there’s a change….and change is good…..




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She throws this ancient poison
That marks a painful change
It was hollow and mute
Now a mad pursuit
There’s no need for potion
Treatment or any prescription
Coz’ she’s lying into this
Broken synthesis


Here it goes her skin and bones
Leaving this dark rigid dome
Northward she goes
Walking like no one knows
Escaping her darkest nights
Surviving inequities
Of this Broken Synthesis


So she painted her soul thru music and me
A wish to extinguish and expire
Coz they dragged her to this misery
And drugged her to this aged melancholy
Oh arctic night I fight
She’s salvaging for the light
Of this black holed iniquities
Like a plague of this Broken Synthesis




050209
2000hrs
Song Composed by: Famejud
Granny’s Compound
Cascades, Tabuk-Kalinga

Friday, February 13, 2009

HITCH and RIDE


I saw his beauty
from a range of visible things
So I asked him out
to leave each doubt


Clear out the webs
As we leave the looms in our heads
Just take my hand
Across that land

As I Say

Wanna hitch and ride
And tell me what's deep inside
coz' I can see the dead still
water in your mind
So come on
hitch and ride
Let's go through all the tides
Whatever's there on either sides
Let the water flow
where the river lies........



You know our love is true
I know our love is blind
Yes, it hurts so much
That we must leave em behind....


Now we must be free from fear
And let the shadows of the world appear
As we turn the other page
We've to wipe our tears
Lets drive a happy wheel
through the years..................




Lyrics and Chords by: Famejud
021309
1800hrs
Cascades, Tabuk-Kalinga

Thursday, May 29, 2008

You're the Ugliest and Best Side of Me

This old haunted house
Tells much of you and me
So here I am
Ghost writing, matching
Every story
Failing, trying
Completing the mystery
Escaping, hating
For half a century
Crying, compelling
Others from your fears
These tyrannical sibling rivalries
All dramatic complexities
Shading miseries
All tearing memories
You’re the missing meteorites
Of this broken home….

Cho:

{Coz} You are the Ugliest
And best side of me
We are what we don’t see
Feeling lost
Making blames
Losing grips
Shredding into strips
Some remained
Some let go
Some are dead
Some are living far away ahead
Those haunted faces
Making paces
Thru this cold wide spaces
Same old bloody icy stories
Same old burning furies
All these controversies
You can’t stop being the juries
{Coz} We are what we don’t see
You’re the ugliest
And best side of me…..




You call this our family
Cutting each other
Getting over each other
Oh, let pains evaporate
Too late to evaluate
And investigate
No need to analyze
And criticize
Coz, we’ve been paralyzed….
Where ever you go
What ever you do
It all comes back to you…..
What ever you hear
What ever you see
Where ever you roam
Y’all need to get back home…………


This is our broken home
Crumpled memories
Of love and jealousies
Betrayal and dishonesties
All lies and crippled thoughts
Rolling recalling history
Here I am
Scrubbing out
Saying shield each doubt
Blaming is why we bleed
Don’t make it a century
Apology is all we need
Let serenity be a repose
This is my soulful noise barrage
Remove all the camouflage…..


Coda:

Hear your voice
Burning meteorites
Is this your choice?
Fading every night
When does the hurting mend?
Is this the dead end?



Lyrics By: Julieva Famejud
Famejud's Camp
Cascades Tabuk
220408
0215hrs


PostScript:

This song is dedicated to my relatives here and there.....i dun hav to mention ya GuyZ coz Ya ol know yerself Betah than I do....I hope....thru the hopless....I still hope...Wishin ya all gUYz PEACE, SERENITY...................REAL LOVE.................CARE...................wISHIN Y'ALL for the Betah........GOD SPEED!!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

FIRE WALL

I-

You keep on askin
What are you thinkin?
I say nothin,
Nothin, nothin at all....
Beggin and askin
Tell me, tell me, somethin!
Keepin the feelin
Pausin, thinkin of nothin
Coz am fallin, fallin,
Failin to say anythin,
Anythin at all......


II-

I hear the buzz!
I hear the call....
I read your message
My beloved wonder wall....
As I gaze upon this wall
My Nebulous eyes
Hardly see you at all....
Concealin compassions....
Detriments and passions.....
Our Connection is Just and All.....


Pre Cho:

Breakin the silence
Holdin our piece
Where do we turn to?
Where do we go?
It's makin me lame
Connectin with this
magnetic game
Pushin and Pullin
Darin me to move
Loosin and controllin
My Head and my Mood! (2x)


Cho:


{B'coz}
You're my Secret Haven
My Silent Home
My Lovely Harbor
My Only shore
Listen to my Music
Im lovin you More
In each and every Lyric
You're a part of me
Read my writings
You belong to me
{Bcoz}
You're more than
juz a Fire Wall to me....(2x)


III-

So we saved our names
Thru our Memory Lanes
Im glad you came
In the morning rain
Where Love Ended
Strange Love begins
Though Love is Melancholy
My Love is Sanctuary
If this is a Friendship Melody
I say its a destiny.......



IV-


You're always safe and free
To Keep All thoughts of me
Photographs as Souvenirs
A sentimental Memory
In this Lethargy
I hear that lucid sound
Thru melee and harmony
Waitin on the solid ground
You'll be lovin me
On the same sound
After All,
It's My Love that counts!



A Song Composed By: Julieva Famejud
250308
2211hrs
beachsand, cagayan island

P.S.

to the one whom i wrote this song....." sometimes i fail to keep in touch bt i hope that does'nt break the connection between us...after all, Friendship could'nt end in silence......Coz Memries Always Remain........." :-)

Quote from Famejud: "Love is Undeniably Exploratory"



Quote from Thomas A. Edison:

" I cant believe for a moment that life in the first instance originated on this insignificant lil ball
which we call earth...The particles which combined to evolve living creatures on this planet of ours probably came from some other body else where in the universe."

Friday, February 22, 2008

ENVELOPED EMOTIONS

I-

You are nomadic nimble
A skipper and a quibble
If detoxifying my thoughts
Make you sad
And in my silence
You gone mad
Keep loving your annoyance
No need to read me
Thru your chasing nom de plumes
I can't be dreaming
Is there a need be
To fumigate all your fumes.


Cho:

So these are my Enveloped Emotions
Running miles and miles
Just to make a smile
Laughing out loud
Even pains are all in the cloud
Trying to be good
And getting crucified
Dying every moment
Just to survive
Taking control of lost emotions
OH, my enveloped emotions
Oh, my enveloped emotions
No need to see my teardrops
And knowing my every fall
Do we really need a tryst
Just to understand
Though Broken
I'm here Always
Lending a hand......



II


This wild panorama
Has its own drama
Sit, think and stare
Love is simply painted anywhere
This is a quarterback
Unveil your thoughts
As I'm bouncing back
Play those favrite cd's
From your rack
I feel you
Am not blind
You love to unwind
Playing and Hating
My Oriental Heart and Mind.


(Repeat Chorus)


III

Skydiving, Eavesdropping
Love and Hate all colliding
Carelessly, judging me all the wrong
In this island where I belong
I need no allibi's
No need to say goodbyes
All this tidings
Flowing in, flowing out
Just calm down
Swim in my heart
This love is free
Leave this deep secrets within me
As i go and let go
Imprison these precious things inside me.



This is my 3rd Emo Song: Enveloped Emotions
Song Lyrics by: Julieva Famejud
Feb. 19, 2008
1000hrs
Gayyaman's Camp
P-6 Bulanao



Here's Lillasysters: Umbrella
this umbrella song is dedicated to the one who inspired me writin my third emo song......good luck.......Ce'st La vei.....


Saturday, February 16, 2008

BOBO

A Quote for this Song:

"The strong became weak, the genius became dumb, the brave became coward....The weak became strong, the dumb became genius, the coward became brave......These happens because we fall in and out of Love....Love always has its ERRORS..sumtimes we try to REFRESH then REALIZE its BEST to SHUT DOWN but the hardest part is RESTART UR LIFE and REFORMAT UR HEART....




### BOBO ###

I-
I am not resting here unfocused
I am not resting here wasted
I am only here on bound
So don't you make me go round

Oh, I know that time flies
I don't deserve the lies
You come and go like a punk
Still the same kind of junk


Ref:
There's nothing my heart would say
Except for you to go away
Coz in my mind you faded
with yesterday
Juz like the other day
Remember not to Wait
Can't you see its gettin late
Sorry my heart chooses not to stay
Coz tomorrow is the keyword of today
This is my Vigor my Own Hey Day......
Me Heart and I moves on Everyday!

Cho:

Coz there ain't no Bobo Queen
Sayin no more loosing of self esteem
She's long gone Bobo's King
You left her with a broken wing
She swings and swing
and bled with a 1000 lies
You left her without her lil pride
On that day Miserably She Died.....



III-
On the same kind of mon I enchant
The past is truly wounded
The present is sitting here as vacant
There's the future landing to the sweet candid.......


IV-
Don't Come Back for me no more
You lose all the chances before
Hilariouly u're sounding like a
TIBETAN MONK
Sorry, the oil spilled out of the tank.

{Rep. Ref.}
{Rep. Cho.}2x


Bridge:

You're standing, singing to the hard pouring rain
Seeing her now she don't feel any pain
Oh you're grieving asking what you've done
Saying there ain't no sunshine when she's gone
you know, you know, you know
Coz she ain't no Bobo Queen (2x)

Crying realizing these tears from a Bobo King
Coz there ain't no BoBo Queen.........(2x)




Song Lyrics by:Julieva Famejud
@ Gayyaman's Camp
Bulanao, Tabuk - Kalinga
01-06-2008
1638hrs

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BOBO means dumb, idiot, fool and the like! Thats what it meant in Tagalog.
Hey Bobo, heres the Emo song for my ex haha.....SORRY, I used your Name Tag BoBo....Haha... You gave ths idea I shld have used Boban haha...but u chose Bobo....well the song goes to my my my lover my friend.....oh and naw me as his enemy.....haha,..sorry, i moved on....Tsup...Tsup.....I dint say tht bt well he dint as well bt it shows....He really Shows...I dnt fight...So, I juz play dead.......haha......Holy Crap! did i juz say Lover??? ofcourse...even his my ex..I really truly did Love him...ONLY......It dint work...Bcoz.....I have the heavier weight of unconditional love......haha...I wish I can play the Imeem here once again for that James BLunt Song...Goodbye my Lover Goodbye My friend!......Well, I have to play it though...I will try....Hope you guys like it...and so hold on and Cry! there's nuthin wrong in crying....haha....only it shld be juz with yourself to keep...:D





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By: Jame Blunt


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Friday, February 1, 2008

LOVING YOU OVER ALL

alright!!! starting form ths page i wrote three songs bt ths is the first one am gonna post for my first EMO SONG ths month of january......well, since it is emo; some may say ouch!!!!...eww!!!!......what i like abt emo izaat ths isnt a habitual expression......the emotions are deeper here, more colours to portray....what i love with emo izaat whn i was writing it.......theres much honesty on it..no matter how bad or how good u feel......ths is like a confession ring or outlet on my part.....so here is LOVING YOU OVER ALL composed by me ofcourse......for the first time of Emo ths year......


I-
There is Nothing to chase
Those are mem'ries we cant replace
We can't erase what's said and done
What matters now is you're not alone
There's no one on our sides or in between
We survived so let wonders begin.........

Ref:
{Coz} It aint easy to be a mystery
To have all kinds of pain and misery
Ive seen us together through it all
These are the pictures on the wall.........

Cho:
You are crazy
You are wild
Oh my God
You're like a child
You shove mistakes
Up my front
Take a break
I'm the one
You love to hate
I break my soul
Juz to make you whole
Coz you aint easy to overhaul
Yes, I swear i hate you
But, I loved you
Coz I'm Loving You Over All...(2x)

II-
I can't break through your will
So I laid down bein still
You're drowning and dreaming
on the sea side
Was here waving
from a lighter side
So you can grab my arms
and break away
I'll hold you still
juz to save you for another day........

Bridge:

The lightning crashes you down
Hurricane struck all over my town
These lil pittied mem'ries
These different insanities
Let down all the waterfalls
I succumb to nature
Spring will come after all....

(Rep. Ref and cho)


III
So lets ride all the thrill
Juz Say you need me
as you will
If you say never
Simply walk away
I won't beg you to stay
When you say forever
I'm loving you for whatever
From Here and Ever After..........

Rep. Bridge, ref then cho
Rep last line of chorus 3 times then fade.......





Composed by: Julieva Famejud
140108
1549hrs
Gayyaman&Viray's Camp
Purok VI, Bulanao
Tabuk-Kalinga



PS: Hmmmmmnnn...thinking...hey bobo ur song is next.....i wrote it....haha....dnt worry.....the story aint u.........haha.....dnt wonder whos tht crazy thng on it...soo........its Emo...LoL...So what...dnt care if he reads it....haha much better....bt Hey, i really thank u for givin me idea what the title is all about.......promise i will post it next.....after ths first song i made ths year....hah...Bobo is on the 2nd list...so juz wait.......Have a great vacation and have a great taste of Baklahva! hahaha....(juz Kiddin).....You Take Care.....Bon Voyage When u gonna be back @ work!

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Is there Anythin Else to Confide III


I must have been imaginative
like trusting and believing
hoping and dreaming
you got me into it
I felt so extreme
I felt no shame
You knew me so I dont have to explain
my feelings are true
did you feel the same way too?
what i felt is that my feelings are stronger than you do.......


Remember when there were 2 candles burnt?
you lit the 1st candle for me
so I can see the blink of you
So i can feel the warmth of your side
Then what went wrong?
you dint lit another candle for me?
I was waitin....But there's no light.....
So I gathered my strength to lit the 2nd candle
for you to see me....
for you to feel me....
for you to find me....
I was waiting.....But there were no signs of you..........
I was waiting to hear you shout or at least whisper and confide.......
but theres no voice of you.....
Til my candle light went off......





Maybe it was a dream or it was a reflection
So I need to let go...I have to let you go......
You just cant say it thats what i feel
You knew am stronger now so you dont have to reveal.....
Those shattered pieces gathered.......
you came to my life before i crushed more into pieces....
you lit the candle for me to be my lil brightlight
you knew how you want me to feel and think of you....
you juz knew how goffy I was.....
yes, you handled my thoughts very well.....
where there I was yearning
so you taught me where I learnt.......




This isnt me in disguise
These pieces of memories are still part of the maize.....
I wanna keep it unharmed
yer safe on my hands.....
for if there was no you I havent regained my shape.......
The shape where i Might have crushed more into pieces
I cant reclaim where I was
So forgive me if there's rudeness of me ignoring you for a lil while.....
for it was a time for acceptance.....
that you would always be where i met you.....
so this I have to say on this very page........
That I have listened well,
I gathered all the thoughts and learnt alot
I dont wanna say goodbye coz i hate goodbyes.....
so i am Here......Always VISIBLE.......am not imagining for this time.....
Really I wanna say this to you......
Where at first I was your friend.......
And at :Last I would still be............
Thank You very much my INVISIBLE friend.......




I made a bonfire Back in the wilderness
to keep me safe and to keep me warm
Should I lie with all the stress of my hammered heart and brain????
I struggled so fast and traveled so far........
All I see is that I am still with my vow......
The vow of a lonely heart who still believes in love......
for LOVE I Subdued, I Surrendered
The Ocean Heart is still here.......
dont wonder........i am here.......
for it is painless if you give more than what you receive......
Accepting the Truth Laid Bare.......
That Love is not a Liscence to Own a Person
That Love is a sacrifice and unconditional..........




Gathering all the thoughts in the Darkness
I have these chains of hope
and that hope is within me.........
and that lil light would be a part of me.......
and a part of the other who wants to share his light with me........
All i need is to wait coz its never too late
for the one who have same fate as me......



POSTSCRIPT:

This words frm here i will nt be able to erase......i'll juz remember...the thoughts and memries who made my feelings write these words.........i wanna ddc8 ths song for ths certain special friend of mine A Song from Jordin Sparks.......



TATTOO




Hey... hey... hey... hey... Ohhh..Ohhh Ohhh

No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
Keep my hand in the fire,
sooner or later I get what I'm asking for
no matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed the truth is a stranger soul is in danger
I gotta let my spirit be free to..
admit that I'm wrong
and then change my mind
sorry but I have to move on
and leave you behind


[ Chorus: ]

I can't waste time
so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry
bout everything I done
live every second
like it was my last one
don't look back
got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
you're still a part of everything I do
you're on my heart
just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you


I'm sick of playing all of these games
Its not bout taking sides
when I looked in the mirror,
it didn't deliver,
it hurt enough
to think that I could stop
admit that I'm wrong
and then change my mind
sorry but I got to be strong
and leave you behind


I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothing's broken
no need to worry
bout everything I done
live every second
like it was my last one
don't look back
got a new direction
I love you once needed protection
you're still a part of everything
I do you're on my heart
just like a tattoo
just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
I'll always have you
if I live every moment,
won't change any moment,
there's still a part of me in u
I will never regret you
still the memory of you marks everything I do. oooh..


[ Chorus ] 2x

I can't waste time so give it a moment I realize nothing's broken no need to worry bout everything I done live every second like it was my last one don't look back got a new direction I loved you once needed protection you're still a part of everything I do you're in my heart just like a tattoo just like a tattoo I'll Always have you..

Thursday, September 13, 2007

IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE TO CONFIDE? (PART 2)

What Brought Us Here?
The openlines of two specific worlds adhere
The mysteries of its life are still to be known inch by inch
And the cycles are not that easy to comprehend
But the least of common things are just simply said and done
From day to day basis on life itself
The basic characters are known a little
From their own portrait and uniqueness of individuality
In our lives we always make 2 choices
And our reaction takes place whether that would be in a good or bad mood
"Every situation is a Choice."
In this sense we choose to live the risky and difficult life
Its the basis of our own personalities which is not easily understood by anyone
While we can choose the easy way
And say, DANG! I juz need to be here, juz wait and enjoy life thats it....
But the fact is there's what we call searching
The thrill of going outside our own abilities
To say, "Hey! I am here" but no ones listening
And the echoes from where you at
Juz explains that you are all alone....
After awhile... there's a voice from no where
Sayin, " Are U There? Are u still there?"
And the other replied; " Yes, I Am Here, I Am Still Here."
These simply explains that anybody or everybody needs someone
The other might be juz stucked in there
While you were shouting from the inside that you need help
But each viewpoints says you still need each others help.
I tried to reconsider the things I might not have
And lose something special on my part
But if the exchange of this was too dim
And barely I can't get my feet back on the ground
And have no wings to fly for my spirits locked
I would rather shatter the glass that reflects my physical outlook
And step on those broken pieces that somehow my blood sheds
I will only see my ugly face on that broken pieces of glass
And the hardest part is that they can't see and feel
That my spirits free
The concept of my mind runs through my heart
That only shows what is life all about.
They say they don't understand
But they do what they do
I did what i've done
Still they don't listen and seem to understand
That I already started bleeding from one part
And if only the answer is me to sacrifice
Why not do for the betterness on this part
If we love to view of achieving something from others then our love is no love.
Love means constant self offering on the strength of our own inner aspiration.
Then here's the other part of me who keeps me light and thrilled
The one who lives quiet depression
But as the tiny drop enters the ocean
He becomes the mighty boundless ocean
When it enters, we can not trace the drop
He becomes the mighty ocean.
And through the hard times of countless fights
I remember one fight that put distinction of what he is
he called himself God to a Duffer
A duffer that once almost shattered both of our worlds
The duffer understood him in different way
That he calls himself God so she tells him that God can't ask forgiveness
While I was thinking and smiling and got the message
He was pertaining to God but that word in particular
I conceptualized that from a Quote I read years ago
I think I was 20 at the time being when i read that theme
I still remember it somehow
" Love is Man's Reality,
Devotion is Man's Divinity,
Surrender is Man's Immortality,
Reality is All Pervading,
Divinity is All Elevating
Immortality is All Fulfilling."
Evidently, what do you think about these 2 different worlds shares alike?
What is written here remains here for tomorow is yet to be written......

(p.s. to be continued.....)

its mhee,
Julie



Written By: Julieva Famejud
@janette's desk
Prk.6 Bul. Tabuk-Kalinga

Monday, September 10, 2007

THE MAIDEN


Knock Knock Knocking on the maiden's door

When she opens you'll see her bare feet sore

Amused from her smile and rugged place

Dispirit of a MadMan's Face......

The maiden's nature on lustrous will

From mirth and freedom on a sill

Any cares for a blessed weed

That rests never a lust

But there lies the seed on her purest soul

Where anytime there's creepy days

Behold thy Maiden's Soul

Who was kept unrested but satisfied

And cheerfully as she is

To grow with Nature in the wild

Shameless as to see her speak

Listen whenever she is sick

Her weakness becomes the maiden's strength

On the grounds of truth and little happiness

Sorrows and Misunderstandings are always be

A Mixture of Great and Small

To Take that Ground of Gratitude

Let her be on the account of a wealthy heart

The maiden stood and shared her tears

To a lonely heart..............

Those present hours of thankful past

May it be the words that last

For those wishes and fears

Through on these days will pass............

How the Maiden foretells of No Retreat

That may be of a distant place

But this is not for a Shallowed Mind

That Magnifies for a Willfull test

For the Maiden Speaks Not from the Mind

Rather for a Willfull Heart

That bears the truth with in herself

As for others may not understand

So Simple As she Will Be

That on her Part Lives the Creed

Of just what she is

The Maiden of that Rugged Place.............




Composed on August 19, 20072300hrs@janettes desk

Prk. 6 Bulanao, Kalinga

Written By: Julieva Famejud

Confession: My Great Appeaser


"To look deeper than the colour of things is a fantasy
Exploring deeper thoughts and meanings is not superficial
To whist ourselves is just as natural as reflections
When we use all these it’s called soulful pleasure and fun
If you say you don’t need any of these you’re extremely unsensual"


--famejud--


My Great Appeaser


You may think these are peevish scenes on my mind
But there’s nothing wrong with what I feel inside
This reflects on my mind
They may say I am in a severe situation of a hopeless case
That sounds absurd who have foolish games and foolish dreams
But these are just the things I want to say…
When I sleep I summon you
The good sword of my soul
In each day you command me too
From the corners of my mind
You make me unwind on what pleasure I give to you
And pleasures you bring to me
They think I’m going wacky
They thought it isn’t normal
And yes maybe I’m in my autistic world
Where there I can lay my hands in no control
Where my body and soul is free….
So here comes the good sword of my soul
He cut me once
He cuts me thrice
But I never saw him in disguise
I felt all natural
Because the cuts are just so fine
We’re saving this world for one
While our pleasures slowly run
Through these rainbow connections these fun has just begun
That time cometh and will be done……
Hello, My great appeaser
The good sword of my soul
At night you come and protect me from my nightmares
When you leave each morning’s you say I’ll be just fine
It makes me remember and feel you from deep within….
The rest of the day I’m just bounded by the good sword of my soul
My great Appeaser…..From this moment and on…..
They say it’s very rude thing about me
I said No, it’s not rude at all
For they may click and stick
But they sound incomplete.
What else to notify?
You can say what is relevant….
I’d rather be guilty and free
Do judge me or misjudge me
It won’t mislead me at all
I am who I am
This is my inner self speaking for anyone who listens well….
I am saying this is me
I don’t care whatever they think of me
Because when they laugh at me
I am laughing too
So we are all even….
I am saying that if they have all the tools
Or the tool they just need in the real world
I don’t care, I don’t give a damn
It’s my tool I’m talking about
The good sword of my soul
The finest of all
Your solitary, tool in my dreams and fantasies
My great Appeaser…..
I’m living with you everyday
With those hopes and dreams
You’re still not taking it away
This you may react
It is sad but true
I am just the woman who believes in you……
With you I believed
With you I only hoped
With you I am just me
With you who commands me
With you who I long for
With you who took me out of post
And make me run my own feet on the steering wheel.
No further questions asked
You’re the one who can see me through
You who bring out the best and worst of me
You know, I know
You see, I see
You feel, I feel
That these are the plain truth between you and me…..
This is not even a poignant matter to me it will never be
Because for me you will always be
The good sword of my soul…..My great Appeaser…….


written @ prk bul. Tabuk Kalinga 2243hrs
--->by: julieva famejud <---

MAYBE

Sometimes Someday Maybe We Still Do
Maybe yes, Maybe not if its Never too late for me and you
Always remember, that I will never forget you
And don't forget to remember me too
Like Once we had this Journey that Meant so much for me and you.....
Never Be Never Will
Without You and Me Being Still
Sounds So Easy But Never Was
Always Hoping and Believing
Fulfilling Our Hearts Dream
Like a Forever Flowing Stream......
So from Here and After
Maybe We could go Wrong or Right
But that Don't really Matter Just Remember our Laughter
Coz this is Our Own Private Flight.....
Where Will We Be
Together You and Me
Forever in Memory
Through Our Loving Unchained Melody
That Maybe We Need Not be Fast
Coz Baby We may Built to Last!


jannete's desk
august nights
0300hrs....bul.tbk.kal.
---written by: julieva famejud---

Friday, September 7, 2007

Is There Anything Else to Confide????

I've found a shell in the deepest sea
As this pearl speaks to its ownself
Uncertain things happened and its juz so.....
But who can say?
What has been or what will be?
As we have suddenly met across the seas....
I never even thought about it...
It juz happens...without any plans...
As what we're both made nothin is said to be skeptical....
When he pounds to ur door...and knocked...
How many times...U dont know when....
But he's juz there...
He is juz around...U will feel it thru ur instincts....
It is such an unexplainable thing......
Our love is found to be free from afar...
Questions raised the answers are okay....
I came to like it that way....
With no hesitations, no speculations, and no doubts...
Our feelings are made to be deep.....
It moves slow and not a fast track....
As we let our hands find its route....
We haven't talked over yet...
Coz that's what we're made to be....
Juz let the feelings free.....
As the love grows more fonder....
let the time find its meaning...
And the passwords are keyed into our own keeps....
Love MOves in Mysterious Ways....
There is no perfection in our world...
Coz i'm not a perfect one and what can i say to my deary one?
A detail to detail moments eversince we knew each other...
Is a very special part of me....
He knew all about me all along....
Even my darkest moments I can't lie...
He is such a caring person...
Who wasn't dismayed no matter what i've said and done...
Though he's mad when there's reason to be mad at...
It's such a memory to me when we haven't talked for a long time....
As i was what he knows what i have been through...
IT was such my hardest days....
I was surprised he's still there....
Even we havent talked for so long....
there's this attachment that until now It shows how we are connected to each other....
The highest form of love is friendship where we started as friends....
And even now i like to keep that friendship so what ever happens
That is supposed to be kept as a very special thing
Coz he is that special to me...
Im thankful that i've found a person who is down to earth....
In my humblest part i subdue......
For what he did is an acceptance after seeing the real me
He juz came and never left...
as it was an unconditional love....
The feelings tells so much...
Even there's nuthin much to say.....
Sending messages, Greetings of thoughtfulness comes around these days...
As we find a hard time to talk for these moments.....
As for our special case we understand....
In our passionate side we dream as what we thought we are
As it was a reflection of our yin yang persona
The feelings is juz free to say what was felt
Coz we are that deep which both of us are able to understand....
In each writing we dont know what happens next....
Every letter through these words have been felt....
As for our love and friendship is still growing more fonder....
And getting better....
Our understanding and satisfactions
Tells our feelings to be as free as what we both are to be made....
Coz our love is found deeply within us.....
As a pearl dont grow in the snow.....
or in the mountains.....
nor in the mines....
It juz grows in the ocean....
Where people search for it but seldom to be found.



Sincerely,
"JULIE"
TO BE CONTINUED.....


Written By: Julieva Famejud
Camdas Compound, Baguio City
September 5, 2006

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Post Script:
Never thought that I would be better than I am now if u were not around those days....
--> famejud

REVELATIONS: September Blues

"As im scanning my Diary I haven't realized that I wrote this...."


How i wish our tale is over...for 5 yrs....i don't wanna think about bad realities coz i always wanted to be an optimistic person. But why do i feel this way? I thought that this should be over by now. I have forgiven you and the rest with my counteract problems with my mom. I thought of such a good way juz to free myself from all of these. My own solutions aren't workin. I felt i'm stucked inside a tomb.

Why do you want me to stay in the darkness? Why do you want to keep me for all these years? I do hoped that I'm nobody's fool but you always linger around...You like to keep me in a cell where in you have a private line to call whenever you want to call me...Meet me when ever and where ever you want to meet me. It just seemed that you owned me without the knowledge or blesings of the people around me who cares for me, who also loves me...whom I stayed for all my life!!!

If you really do love me why are you scared to show me to the world we're in??? Why not tell the world that this is ME, the only girl I want to be with for life? Why cant you tell them that you needed me, that you love me that much and that no one else can make you happy but me? --that's what i've heard from you...but did you ever try to tell or whisper that to the world?
If you really want me in your life then fight for me!!! I cant do that alone! coz i needed you to help me get through with what you really want in life...Your decision is just a matter of choice if you want me to stay or not to stay in your life...Coz you know what???--> I felt abused by letting me that i'm always in a hanging situation when it comes to you...

Am i not that faithful enough to you? Aren't you proud of me? Are you ashame to show me in the bright light? Are you happy locking me up in the dark room for all these years? Am i not worthy enough to be respected as a woman who truly loves you! Why cant you juz tell me the truth??? Dont linger around....they knew it all the while....i was faithful enough to you but it seems you didnt give a merit on that...i gave you chances....forgiveness and less for now Im sorry to tell you but you're such a bully...a coward in its pants...

Im hurt, as always be...since you never fight for me as what i have fought for you...I did my part which i thought it's worhty to fight for you. I was wrong, You never let me see and feel that you can fight for me coz you didn't do it...Im always in a reckless situation with you..Im hurt, I have so much pain...I think and i felt that i gave my very best....but maybe my best isnt good enough for you.....at this time I thought of you alot....with all the sacrifices and my love for you....I'm setting you free my dearest one....

sincerely,
Famejud




Written BY: Julieva Famejud
September 28 2004
Cascades, Tabuk - Kalinga
________________________

Post Script:

WHOAAAA!!!! when i wrote this, i never knew that I am preggy with my so called beloved "EX" at that moment!!!! I was setting him free but I have his seed on me!!!....It's good I have moved ON!!! hahaha........--> Famejud

MY REBOUND


This Isn't A Foul Play but a REBOUND...Ever Thought of Basketball???




MY REBOUND


They are nailing me down!

They are nailing me down!

Thru this wood I'm in Rage

But I still give 'em a frown

So they can't nail me down!

Told me I'm a sturdy steel

A hippo & words "u" nevah oughtta hear

I'm not a steel! I juz wanna heal!

You don't Know wut i feel! What I feel!?!

Don't wanna give 'em any way or chance to fear!

B'coz I loved & I love

Purely, Deep & True

Yes, all these years & through

So don't give me that ditch

Coz' it will give an itch!

Thru this Cold Darkside path

I needed a bath I'm not a wrath

Ur like a shadow from the grave

I'm not ur slave so behave

Can't help you the way you want me too!

I'm sorry if we're all blue; glue "urself" with that shoe!

Girl, the ring is 12 feet tall

From my last 3 minutes I played the hard ball

Passed yah to give urself a chance

Make a shoot & give him a Stand!

Turn around don't give me that band Make Urself a Star bound!

"U" said I'm an ANTAGONIST?

Bitch don't gimme Ur COMEDY DRAMA

Seemed like U meant Ur the PROTAGONISt

Hahah a poor girly bummah

Make UR warm planned Agenda!

Uh Oh if you guys are in trouble

Don't include me thru ur burnin bubble

I'm marchin thru my dreams

So don't include me with ur crazy beams

Don't get on with my jet coz i might crash u guys to death!

U're makin me mad drivin me bad

I saw the muds from UR Cages Masks

Boy, I heard yah Thanx for the clear watah

Well, I'm sorry for ur Actin slut

I love you but we're through!

Lady don't play around my fire

Don't wait me bleed to burn yah

Don't talk to me as if "u" know me

Bettah stop ur "sweet baiting words"

I know it's a trap never try coz i know wuccha up to!

From a modern abstract writah

I have to write this for a reason

Musta post this to keep Ur mouths shut

Give a way of Respect

Coz Respect begets Respect!

This is my ultimatum don't wanna hear from yah

Don't wanna waste my time entertainin neither of yah

So why don't yah leave me alone?!?

Leave me alone! To get on with my own!

#END#


Written By: Julieva Famejud
February 23, 2004
DreamLand, Baguio City
also posted at my deardiary.net account
_____________________


***my last words for you lady***

My Ex is my childhood friend. I know him so well.
He's not the kind of guy u're tellin me!
What we have been through was a subject
matter from the past. What hath his Deepest
Love, Care, Respect & Kindness for Me was the
SAME Love, Care, Respect & Kindness I Bestowed
Upon Him. Don't make that Sound as an ENVY
against me. I belong to the PAST. It's OVER....that
must & should INSPIRE you. What were the
mistakes u've found from our past MUST BE a Lesson
for you. Don't try to dig a topic from OUR PAST
because that will only hurt you & hurts him more
than i do. I hope you get what i mean. Learn from
Our mistakes make that change. I hope you will
& you can. I don't care how you start & how you do
it. Juz make a better Quality to urself, have
ur own Unique way of making him to love you
as what and who you really are. don't pretend
what you are not.
He's on my hands NO MORE and ONLY YOU
can KEEP and TREASURE HIM THROUGH...and
that will make me Envy you. Bcoz U have my
SWEETEST MAN I ever ought to have.
I'm tired about all of these. So please have
RESPECT for my Freedom. I hope U'll not
bother me again. Peace be with both of You......

========FAMEJUD=========

Post Script:

"hahaha....is that me??? I never thought I wrote this one.......oh past is past"

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