FREEDOM FREEWILL WISDOM

Written in Baguio City 11/21/2001 in muh diary book....juz wanna share it to every1..I was 20 when i wrote this...

Honestly, i've been shielded w/ a good advisory clan. A clan w/ high perspectives in life. A high spirited clan w/c have thea own strengths & weaknesses. The blood runs through me but life has its own projections of destiny as we call that this is temporary w/ many imperfections to offer. True that thea's a lotta pains to suffer b'coz in good reason thea's a lot to offer whether good or evil depends on the way u manage ur life in any way.

Basing from my experiences & viewed detriments from muh parents & relatives i have set muh own priorities in life. Pretty sure i wanted to be successful; but how? In what way to make this thing happen? i decided what i wanted to fulfill muh studies & career...But here i am problems came along to block muh way. Whea should i stand? I dont really need to feel this way..it's really gettin so complicated that even muh own will couldn't resist this feelin deep inside me w/c makes me feel so uneasy & incomplete. I hate muh self of bein this way! Can they understand me somehow? Will they understand muh situation???

I'm friendly but i can be a loner too. I hate talking so much most especially when u're in a conversation repeatin the matter itself. I love to meditate..I can meditate 2-3 hrs @ most w/o disturbances. I hate disturbances when i'm doin somethin important. i'm using meditation as a medicine for bad thoughts & releasing bad feelings in a day.

Music=listening to music or singing a song is one of muh ways of expressing on how i feel each day. I like writing poems; quotations, phrases, paragraphs, story or in anyway depends on how i like muh expression to be posted in muh compilations. Philosophy is muh favorite subject in life. Arts is already attached in muh heart since i was born. Born as an artist in muh own way.
I'm more as a listener than a speaker. Inside muh family & relatives skirt i've always been a listener to their explosive arguments neither logical or illogical statements were brought up i was already immuned about their truthful & non-truthful conversations.....
WHOAA!!!..A comic comment frome me would be:
How i wished that muh Genuine Grandfather should have built a DEBATING ROOM inside his house for his CHILDREN who are fond of ARGUMENTS or may I say COURT TRIALS!!!===hehehe...=It's a BUZZIN JOKE==
======who will be the defendant?==============who will be the prosecutor?=============who are the members of the JURY?==
In this case, it's always been an unclosed trial..do u know why? B'coz there's no JUROR in this Case...on the grounds that both of the PROSECUTION & DEFENDANT acts as they're the JURY @ the SAME TIME!!!===hehehe the blood of the GENIUSES.....OOOOPPPSSS!!!Grrrr...Juz a Buzzin Joke...

Thank You Very Much GrandPa!!! I may not be ur favorite grandchild, I may not be as smart as Granny, I may not as wise as muh MOM & I may not be as genius as "U" most of all even if i didnt inherit any of those Qualities you have...I DID REMEMBER ONE THING!!!!!!
A moment w/ "U" that I'll always remeber & treasure...YOU asked me to accompany "U" to the Barber Shop; we walked from home to the Barber Shop & VISAVI.....Honestly, as i was a child...i hated walking w/ "U" that day b'coz u're so slow to walk yet the day is sooooo HOT!!! Comparing "U" to GRANNY "U" we haven't dropped in any snack haus as a MERIT....unlike what GRANNY does!!!

But A MERIT Of SNACK IS NOTHING to the PICTURE of LIFE & MESSAGE "U" gave me that GREAT MOMENT I SPENT MUH TIME W/ "U"!!!!

THE CONVERSATION:

" FAME; did u notice that the sky is so blue today?" I'm patiently bein w/ him...shhh...I answered; " yes, GrandPa the Sky is so blue & muh Skin feels the extreme heat of the sun....It's too hot...!!!" GrandPa smiled :) & asked me...."Did u see the Dove's of our neighbor?" I'm BORED!!!but i still managed to reply..."YES; i saw the DOVE's are soarin UP High GROUPED as ONE." Then GRANDPA CHUCKLED>>>.....& said; " True & dont forget that those are SIGNATURE's; BEAUTIFUL CREATIONS & are MEANINGFUL CREATURES..." HE CLOSED THE CONVERSATION AS HE WENT UP INSIDE HIS ROOM TO TAKE A REST.....

As i grow older i've been analyzing what HE really meant though my comment or idea touched the topic there's no completion of the statement HE wanted to REVEAL from the IDEA & or VIEWS muh GRANDPA SIGHTED....I studied that case & reviewed it all over again until arriving into a conclusion that is recognizing & accepting the true NATURE OF A SITUATION...I arrived in SOLVING that PROBLEM when i was 16 way back in the year 1996...the method I used was GrandaPa's WORDS & Some of muh comments that he AGREED upon w/ the TOPIC HE STARTED...

1. I sketched: (picture & view)

2. I analyzed the Idea's He sighted...

a.) picture->view->sight->ideas->analyze

b.) COMMENT: SOARING->SEARCHING

3. Analyzed Ideas:

a.) they're a signature= sign it symbolizes reality

b.) beautiful creations= creativity

c.) meaningful creatures= meaningful views of life.....

4. The Idea By QUESTIONS???

a.) SEARCHING...FOR WHAT???

b.) SIGNS.......SYMBOLS OF REALITY??? Like birds/doves???

c.) CREATIVITY..In WHAT WAY??? By acts? Mind? words?

d.) VIEWS OF LIFE.....like PHILOSOPHY?

===THE ANSWER===

1. Searcching 4 truth.

2. Symbols of birds & or doves===***FREEDOM***

3. Creativity of life inside urself:

a.) by the mind depends on how u picture or view urself.

b.) by words depends on how u express urself...verbally...or words inactions like writing; thinking; or in short....

"MAN has its own ARTISTIC WAY OF LIFE depends on HOW HE LIKES OR LOVE HIS WORK OR WHAT HE IS DOING."

***FREEWILL***
4. Views of life=PHILOSOPHY=PHILOSOPHY=means the study of IDEAS about LIFE EXISTENCE; KNOWLEDGE & BELIEFS...A GREEK WORD "PHILOSOPHOS" meaning

"A LOVER OF WISDOM"....

***WISDOM***

I arrived at the ANSWER when i was 16...the ANSWER was only documented after5 yrs and i was turning 21 on DECEMBER 18, 2001....i was able to document the ANSWERS a month before my 21st b-day...SEE==how the searching for truth works? I was only 10 yrs of age when GrandPa opened that topic to me...and...i only arrived at the ANSWER after 6 yrs when HE is already 3 yrs DEAD...then after 5 yrs I was able to document it to muh compilation book...NOW by means of internet....we waited another 3 yrs for the documenting of it through my famejud23.deardiary.net and now after 3yrs I am reposting it to my blogger account ......another lesson from this paragraph;

TRUTH is SLOWLY BUT SURELY TO COME OUT....TRUTH PREVAILS...."

Grandpa I may not be living by ur footsteps or examples BUT YOU'VE INSPIRED me through the interesting topic "U" once shared..."U" made me picture the idea, view, traced by muh own realistic questions & arrived to answers that made "MY LIFE SO SENSIBLE."
"IF I have my own last 3+2=5x2=10 WORDS w/ YOU

THAT WILL BE....

"THANK YOU VERY MUCH GRANDPA I OWE YOU A LOT!!!"

"If im goin to write in a statement collecting the views u sighted & wanted to reveal but u refused to tell what exactly those words meant to be...in order for me to devotedly find out logically; how to picture life, how to make realistic questions, how to analyze,how to answer my own questions honestly...and Finally how to reaveal the words you sigthed..

"THE STATEMENT WOULD BE...
"Having the ***FREEDOM***and***FREEWILL***

to SEARCh for the TRUTH

must be a Lover of ***WISDOM***..."

FILE: SEARCH for the TRUTH.

ACCESS: CODES on how to arrive in a PASSWORD to open a FILE.

PASSWORD: The ANSWERS of IMPORTANT MATTERS of YOUR SENSIBLE LIFE.

**********FREEDOM**********FREEWILL**********WISDOM**********

Written By: Julieva Solimen

posted also at my famejud23deardiary.net account dated February 5, 2004

Baguio City